Can we all just take a minute to let the news soak in for this week? There is WAY too much drama. Stuff that is real, stuff that’s not, stuff that confuses me so much. I just want us all to take a minute, sit, and let this all soak in. I normally don’t talk politics but this is some crazy stuff in political news. 
Okay, I know it’s going to be so random but it has to be said. From pop to politics, let’s chat.

  1. Jeffrey Epstein Suicide – Conspiracy or Truth?

    I know the details are still coming out, but already there’s been multiple different stories, with different details left out. Some are talking into this giant web of conspiracy whereas others are patiently waiting for more info to come out.
    a.  I just wanted to include that Donald Trump, President of the United States, retweeted comedian Terrence Williams. I know it shouldn’t be funny, (ironic? Twisted?) but like… WHAT IS THIS WORLD WE ARE LIVING IN?!

  2. BANANAS!!

    There’s a fungus going around in South America that apparently could cause bananas to go extinct… Like. For real, for real, it could be in 10 years. Or bananas could become super expensive by then.

  3. Miley Cyrus and Liam Hemsworth Split-Up

    How the heck… they’re basically the celebrity version of high-school sweethearts, meeting on that cute Nicholas Sparks movie-set and being in love ever since. Is this actually happening?

  1. The Whole China Thing…

    Basically Hong Kong had agreed to be more of a semi-democratic government compared to communist China and Hong Kong is moving toward even more democracy and China wants more control.
     Protesters were playing Les Miserables “Do You Hear the People Sing?” in the airport!!!

5.  An NYPD Officer killed himself, and he is reportedly the eighth suicide of NYPD for 2019.

6. A family of 4 was on a camping trip in Canada and a WOLF attacked them! Talk about the movie ‘Back Country’ except that was a bear… scary stuff.

7. Zac and Elizabeth were winners of Love Island USA Season 1!

P.S Tana Mongeau and Jake Paul did get married but it’s not a “real” marriage. I just wanted to include them in here.

Lastly, I JUST RECENTLY heard of the Elisa Lam video which completely freaked me out and made me sad, all at the same time. If you haven’t read the story, go read it. And if you haven’t watched the video, go watch it. Does anyone have any tho

I guess this specific post is a conglomeration of many different ideas/projects I’ve been working on, that have been not-so-neatly tied together.

I don’t know what to blog about because I feel like I’ve blogged about it all, but in reality I haven’t gotten through almost anything. So consider it not a blog. I feel like Cersei Lannister when she had to walk through the city naked with people yelling shame—that’s how writer’s block feels like.

Okay that was even a bit dramatic even for me.

Writers block is tricky, but I feel like the best way to push through it is:

A.     By having a group of supportive, encouraging writer-friends that love you and want you to succeed and endure the stress of writing with them.
B.      TRAVELLING ❤ seeing new places, meeting new people, experiencing new things will usually be just the right dose to begin writing again.
C.     Reading: definitely helps. Inspires new plots, stories, characters, ideas. Sometimes works, sometimes doesn’t. The best writers are the best readers so never a bad idea.
D.    Journaling…/blogging. Ha. Now you know why I’m here.

I must say that I don’t *l0Ve* blogging, but I don’t hate it. It feels weird though, as most of my blog posts are personal thoughts that the internet can read. Basically like a Facebook rant/ story that gets posted on a different platform to not clog everyone’s newsfeed… In other words, you’re welcome.

I decided to stick with the whole blogging thing because apparently some people do enjoy it. It’s just hard to decipher—what should be shared, versus what I should be keeping to myself. I don’t want to look like a crazy person, however it’s hard to hide a crazy person as not being crazy. See, I sound psychotic.

These are some of the topics though that I have thought about delving into:

–         Anxiety/Panic Attacks: Ways to Cope/Why, As a Generation, Are we experiencing so much anxiety… and then delving into the notions of vibrational frequencies and yogi talk I know only a few people have even read about. BTW, I don’t have panic attacks or anxiety anymore, really, so… anyone going through it, you should know, that it can be changed!! There’s hope!
–         Jeffrey Epstein did not commit suicide yet nobody is talking about it.
–         The despise I have for the mainstream media.
–         Game of Thrones: Not like Spoilers or Critiquing it, more just analysis. Especially because I am reading the books and like… wow, the history that this guy Martin knows is pretty amazing. I guess more of a discussion about it.
–         Slatestarcodex/The Rationalist Community/Lesswrong: I don’t know where to get started with this, but there’s just so much to say. And I’ve never commented on his posts, I am just an avid reader of them. He’s very well spoken… (well-written?) #englishmajorthatcantenglish
–         Houses: Remodeling/fixing/renovating. In the same breath, crafts. I guess a hands-on creative project posts that I’d write about.
–         WAYS TO MAKE SOME $$$$: SEE, the whole thing is, in a nutshell: the real estate twitter community, Gary Vee: these people give FREE info away, because how many people are actually going to follow through with what they suggest? Not many. I’d like to write a post about this.
–         30% of Americans have a passport(?)

I don’t know. These are the things that I personally find interesting to talk about, so I guess what I’m trying to say is I have no issue discussing this with other like-minded people. This is what goes on inside my head so. Good times.

10 Things You’ll Always Find In My Backpack

I am sure everyone has their safekeeping on them. There’s just somethings you can’t live without, right?

  1. Credit Card

I always have a form of payment on me, whether that be a credit card or a $20 bill stuffed in the bottom of my bag. I always get scared if I’m stranded in the middle of nowhere and need to get home… yes, this is what I think about.

  1. Phone

My phone is usually almost always on my person. Or around me, in my backpack somewhere. I lose it sometimes but for the most part try to keep it in one spot so I don’tlose it.

  1. ID

I saw an episode on TV once (maybe on Oprah?) of this sports team that got into a major accident on a school bus and someone didn’t have ID on them or something and kids were dead… super traumatic, bottom line it scared me and I always try to keep my Id in my bag.

  1. Deodorant

Not even kidding. I always have deodorant in my bag. For multiple reasons, the first one being I work in restaurants. You run around for 8+ hours, you start to sweat. I work outdoors half the time in this summer heat. And not gonna lie, you never know who else might need it.

  1. Pens

I guess you can just call me a hoarder of pens. I always have one in my bag, usually a lot, and typically one has exploded and made a mess. You can only imagine what the inside of this backpack looks like…

  1. Guest Check Pad

I’m sure every server can relate. I have a million of them between both jobs, with last night’s orders written and scribbled out all over them. I usually always have one in my backpack, JUST IN CASE!

  1. T-Shirt

I typically always have an extra shirt in my backpack. I live far from both jobs and my friends live there and my coworkers and like…What if I want to go out after?

  1. Change

The bottom of my bag is like a piggy bank of coins. I jingle everywhere I go like Christmas bells are ringing.

  1. Sunscreen

I work in the sun!! I only have the sunscreen for the face so I can rub it on my cheeks, half the time I forget though. #winner

  1. Agenda

ALWAYS! This is what my life revolves around!

There you have it! This is what I always try to keep in my backpack so I don’t need to be scrambling around trying to find everything I own. I’m more of a backpack girl, but the same would apply when I’ve been in my purse-stages of life. But YES, there you go.

P.S One thing you’ll never find on me is chapstick, especially when my lips are chapped and I desperately need it.



Honestly, I have so many goals in life I can’t even begin to start on them.

I’ll just write them out so you guys can see: (Obviously in no particular order)

  1. Graduate College
  2. Buy A House
  3. Live in a different country
  4. Create an app
  5. Start a podcast
  6. Take ballroom dance lessons
  7. Start a garden
  8. Explore Tenerife
  9. Live long-term in a van
  10. Go to Envision
  11. Go to Burning Man
  12. Skydive
  13. Swim with sharks
  14. Spend a whole summer in Greece
  15. Travel to Morocco
  16. Visit Machu Picchu
  17. Walk the Camino De Santiago
  18. Have a bunch of kids
  19. Learn Spanish fluently
  20. Have a successful blog
  21. Start a Vlog!
  22. Move out of New York!!!
  23. Fill Up My Passport By The Time It Expires (28 years old)
  24. Get Married
  25. Become A Teacher
  26. Publish all my books ❤
  27. Have a compost
  28. Get a higher level of education: phd? Law school?


See, when you look at it this way it seems overwhelming. OMG how am I going to do everything at once?! Can I get it all done?!

Luckily, right now, time is on my side. These are all just things I thought off the top of my head. Maybe in a year some of them will have happened and could become more fleshed-out.

It all starts by taking a step in the right direction: Right now that step is saving money to invest in long-term wealth. We’ll see where it gets me.

My Summer: Working Away

The thing is, I’ve spent nearly everyday working this summer, it’s almost more natural for me to work everyday than to be home. Well, wait, it actually is.

It’s such a weird feeling to be working everyday. I mean, I did 31 days straight at one point. It’s tiresome in a way, but it also feels like if I’m not making money… then what the heck am I doing? I have goals that need to be achieved!!

It’s super hard in the sense that I am in a summer class. Sometimes I work both jobs. Currently for the summer my dad has a restaurant in a sort-of country club type place that I help manage during the summers and I also work at one of those corporation restaurants that everyone loves. I serve/bartend whatever there, (the stories that can come out of there!!) but I do enjoy it in the sense that I love talking to people! People are always telling me these weird, random stories and I feel like I have a knack for getting to know everything about someone’s life. I think I’m just easy to open up to, which is good in some areas of life. Trust me, it’s a blessing and a curse.

I do enjoy telling stories and listening to stories and I’ve thought about writing them on Instagram – I literally have SO many stories to tell LOL so it’s hard to really process.

When I was younger, I don’t know, 8-15/16 I literally journaled almost every single day. And now that I’m older, I have no idea how I had the time to, but also I do appreciate it as it did document a lot of my life and feelings. I also believe that it helped me internalize and process things that I otherwise wouldn’t have noticed or healed from.

Wow, that could be a whole blog post in itself, journaling… Back to working everyday.

So yeah. My boyfriend and I have super ambitious, high-achieving goals that we are on our way to achieving. I am pretty lucky I’m with someone who can keep up with my energy. I love projects and working on things.


Yeah, so the work life balance is difficult. It’s hard to maintain, it’s definitely hard to keep up with friends/family as at the end of the day, I have no energy to. It’s hard to keep up with passions, writing, reading, yoga, etc. Well, I guess that’s not all true. I usually do read or write every day, but it’s more of a pick-and-choose thing. I guess you just can’t do everything mores, because there’s just not enough time in the day.

My time management skills have gotten better though. I plan everything in an agenda. Yes, I’ve tried bullet journaling and I have to say, I feel like that’s for people who don’t have so much business in their life going on!! I have NOO idea how I would make actual time to keep up with that every single day. I tried it, I guess I could try again though (maybe?) Basically my agenda has everything that I have due each day in terms of school-work, then it has what days I’m working/any events/plans I made with friends all fit in with times. I also have a running list of things I “need” to get done I.e I changed addresses so a list of websites where I still need to change my address, and things I “want” to get done, like blog writing and novel writing and finishing books that I’m reading.

It’s difficult but after Labor Day I’ll have more free time since one of my jobs end at least. I am considering picking up another job since I’m not taking so many classes this semester (12 credits! Yay!) and I’ll have time, and if it’s closer to my new house it would be a lot more convenient for me.

It’s also the fact that I have SO many ideas for blog posts that I need to get done! And a bunch of novel writing! So working every day does work for me to be honest overall, because I have it in my head that in long-term I’ll be okay. I want to be debt-free as well as have a savings, so if this is what I have to do to get there, then I’m all in.

Unfortunately my social life suffers because of that, but eventually things will balance out again. They always do.

My Review On INTERSTELLAR (Spoilers)

Interstellar is about a family, with a dynamic that consisted of leaving his ten year old daughter and teenage son to space travel in hopes of finding a better world for them and ultimately in hope for the future to sustain the human race. All of his decisions were based on the idea of his family.

Honestly this film was a slow start for me to get into, but I personally did end up loving it. It was really good and consisted of a lot of things that we, as a human race, really need to be thinking about. This played on theories that might have been deemed as unimportant, but really do strike my interest.

One factor I considered was this: when scarcity in resources happens, it confines a persona’s mentality like how they were trying to focus on Earth and engineering didn’t matter anymore, they didn’t need them, they needed farmers. They weren’t considering space exploration and really it was as if it was forbidden as nobody even knew about it which can translate into that “survivor” mentality that the “working poor” have in America today, what brings us back to the reality that we are in. This really awakens a sense of trust–or distrust– in our government, the knowledge that is being presented to us, the knowledge that we might not know, the whole “ignorance is bliss” can ring true here since yeah, their world was not blissful but it wasn’t pointing to demise in the eyes of people, nor was it pointing to hope. It was pointing to a plateau, which might be considered worse. Cooper did know what would happen to their planet which is why he went into save-the-world mode and really did start something regardless if that’s not exactly where he wanted to have landed (no pun intended).

Summer Class: PROS/CONS

I can’t even believe I’m writing this.

I took THREE SUMMER CLASSES this summer.

Do you understand how stressed I am? LMAO.

They are all online, but they’re also all English classes. Do you know how much paper-writing I have to do?

It’s a good thing I LOVE TO WRITE!

I just don’t like writing papers. So. There goes that.

It’s fine though, I’m living. Well, I’m breathing. I’m not like “Hey living life right now” material, but I am alive. So sometimes that’s just good enough, right?

My first class was about female writers. I really liked it because it was a lot of Austen, Atwood and Wolstoncraft. Some of my favorites. I did pretty well in the class and my teacher was really nice and understanding so I of course loved her as well.

My second class was 20th century literature… nothing special. It was mostly work I’ve already read since I’m an English major, and an avid reader anyway, so it wasn’t too hard.

Like I said, just a lot of papers. It’s a lot in quantity but it’s also supposed to be anywhere between 15-20 page papers over here.

Just takes up a lot of time, you know?

Now I’m in my last summer class, sci-fy, which I do enjoy to be honest. I got to watch Interstellar which I had been meaning to watch for forever now.


Not taking as many classes in the fall


This summer has been shot.


Does Bumble BFF Actually Work?

Honestly, I know people have all heard of the dating sites “Tinder”, “Match.com”, whatever. There’s Bumble as well, but Bumble also has two other sections: one for business and one for BFF.

The BFF section can only be for girls, or guys, or both. But just friends. A lot of people use the page to promote businesses they might have: estheticians, hair stylists, make up, social media content, etc. Others are genuinely looking for friends, people to go out and meet up with, some have recently moved to the area.

Personally I found out that Bumble even had this option as a connection through my best friend who lives in North Carolina and she had gotten some clients using it. She encouraged me to download it since I recently moved to a new area and I figured, okay, what the heck, why not? So far I haven’t made that “BFF-Connection”, but I definitely have made friends with some cool, interesting people. It’s a fun little networking app that definitely has it’s perks to it!

Lavender By The Bay, “Date Day”, Long Island

Located in East Marion, NY, this is one of the cutest little areas to go for a day trip out east. It is field of lavender, accepts cash or card and looks like seemingly endless fields of lavender. Obviously, it smells amazing. They have a shop where you can buy the local lavender, oils, etc. It’s all so pleasant. It’s a day out in the sun! (Also happened to be our first day off of the entire summer! YUP! No beach days for us 🙂

We were walking down the fields and I decided I needed some pictures since it was oh-so picturesque despite the bees – they were bumble bees! They don’t sting!

Afterwards we went to Greenport in town and went to some bourgeoise pizza place. It was pretty cute since they had Greek flags hanging in the alley way so I was like “AYYY!” to my Italian boyfriend. Don’t catch me out in public because I’m too crazy.

We had fabulous meatballs and pizza we couldn’t finish.

Whatever time we got home, we had a dip in the pool and played with the pup, Ryder. It was literally one of those dates out of the movies how picturesque and smoothly everything went.